I have to say this has been the most peaceful Thanksgivings i have ever had, but the thing is I didn’t celebrate it like any of my friends. I honestly wish that someone who wanted to be home for Thanksgiving to be with there family could have switched some way with me. I was just here having a couple of days off from classes. I did not have a Thanksgiving dinner. in fact I ate alone yet my family was here. I don’t know how not to sound like a heartless bitch but I honestly could leave in the middle of the night and never been seen by any of them again. It would be sad for a while but nothing makes me more sad than being here and still not feeling like a family. I have seen people posting all of these cute pictures with there families and i wish that i had that, or something close. To be honest i wish that we sat down and ate a dinner, instead everyone did there own thing. <——- with that fuck Thanksgiving, i love what today represents but fuck my fucked up family. I literally think i would be ok with cutting myself completely out of there lives and just doing my own thing for a while. It seems to work better when i’m alone than when i’m with others. I don’t know what i should do, but i think whatever it is, i should probably do it sooner or later.